I just wanted to let you know
I talked to God last night.
He didn’t say much,
And neither did I.
But what words we did say
Gave me such small hope,
That even a twice prodigal son
Can still find a way home.
The Christian’s response to doubt (as it should be to everything), must be love. Your brother may be struggling with sin, you must support him by radiating the love of Christ. Your sister is plagued with guilt, speak Christ’s love and it will soothe the storm that rages within her.
In all things; show love."
"You are not free until you have no need to impress anybody."
Sometimes I feel like nothing but layers. Wrapped up in beliefs and convictions that I hold onto so tightly. But not much deeper than that lie my contradictions- my inability to be the kind of compassion and grace that I claim to stand for.
Sometimes I feel too complex to understand myself. Sometimes too incredibly simple and predictable that I wonder if anyone could ever find me fascinating.
And so i live my life trying to unravel these layers, to be at peace with who I am, to understand myself. I want to know what really lies in the deepest part of my heart. But more than that, I want to know that He knows. I want to bare all my layers so I am sure that God can see the deepest parts of my heart. I want to peel back everything- thoughts and motivations and desires- so that I am hiding nothing from Him.
I want Him to know me. And I know He does. I know He knows me much more than I could ever know myself. But I want to choose to let Him in anyway. I don’t want to hold up my masks and defenses even if I know He sees through them anyway.
I want to be able to admit to Him all the things I struggle with. I want to be able to say the ugly things, the doubts and the questions and the confusing emotions. Because I know that He will accept me even with all that. I know that’s what He wants more than anything, honestly. For me to come to Him as I am. Broken. Imperfect. Such a terrible mess sometimes.
This is how He loves me. And this is how I want to let myself be loved.
"Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.” -Psalm 139:23
"My heart swings back and forth between the need for routine and the urge to run."
"But remember, there are two ways to dehumanize someone: by dismissing them, and by idolizing them."
Bold What Applies To You
You are in high school.
You dropped out of high school.
You graduated high school.
You dropped out of college.
You’re in college.
You graduated college with a degree.
You live within 20 minutes of your best friend(s).
You don’t have a best friend.
You live within 20 minutes of your ex.
You have hugged someone in the last 48 hours.
You have been to the movies within the last week.
You have had 3 or more boyfriends/girlfriends just this year.
You have been a designated driver.
You have broken merchandise and not paid for it.
You have played strip poker.
You are a Catholic.
You are an Atheist.
You recycle regularly.
You are a brunette.
You have dated a blonde.
You are friends with a redhead.
You are taller than your mum.
You are taller than your dad.
You have a bank account.
You’ve written a check for less than $5.
You have visited the Statue of Liberty.
You have visited the Eiffel Tower.
You have visited Big Ben.
You have visited the Colosseum.
You have visited The Great Wall of China.
You have never been out of the country.
You have been a waiter/waitress.
You own a Bible.
You own something with a Pentagram on it.
You have used a Ouija Board.
You have been a witch for Halloween.
You have been a zombie for Halloween.
You have your eyebrow pierced.
You have a Monroe piercing.
You have your nose pierced.
You have no tattoos.
You have more than 2 tattoos.
You straighten your hair occasionally.
You have worn a dress in the last 3 days.
You live somewhere that gets snow.
You celebrate Hanukkah.
You were at your own house last New Year’s.
You were at a bar last New Year’s.
You slept through last New Year’s.
You have worked on Christmas Eve.
You have worked on Christmas.
You have been told ‘I love you’ by someone today.
You were told by someone who’s not family.
You slept in your own bed last night.
You regret kissing the last person you kissed.
You are wearing a necklace right now.
You are wearing something red.
You are wearing something blue.
You are wearing something purple.
Your phone number ends with an even number.
You have kissed the last person you called/texted.
You are currently listening to music.
You are waiting for something.
You don’t like seafood.
You have eaten deer sausage.
You have given a complete stranger your phone number.
You have been hit on at work.
You have been hit on by someone more than 20 years older than you.
You have been whistled at.
You have been creeped out at some point if someone whistled at you.
You are a good speller.
You are very punctual.
You were dating someone in December of 2008.
You are still dating that person.
You have cheated on someone.
You have been on a cruise ship.
You have camped out in your own backyard.
You are wearing something that doesn’t belong to you.
You are a Pisces.
You are an Aquarius.
You are a Leo.
You wonder what will happen when you die.
You are afraid of the dark.
You write in all capital letters.
You have been told you have nice handwriting.
You have had a song written for you.
You have had a picture drawn of you.
You have curly/wavy hair.
You are wearing a watch.
You are wearing flip flops.
You wouldn’t date someone who smoked.
You know someone with the same birthday as you.
You are a morning person.
You are a night owl.
You slept in past 10AM today.
You have big plans for next weekend.
You are thinking of someone special right now.
Your job is stressing you out.
You don’t have a job.
You have never had a job.
You were fired from your last job.
You know sign language.
You will usually try something at least once.
You have been swimming in the last month.
You are pessimistic by nature.
You have taken a ballet class.
You have taken karate. (tkd)
You have taken gymnastics.
You wish on shooting stars.
You wish at 11:11.
Your birthday has already come this year.
You have been in a relationship that lasted longer than a year.
You aren’t over your ex.
You have gone after someone you knew was bad for you.
You have let someone use you.
You were/are a teenage mom.
You are an otaku.
You are a cosplayer.
You were named after someone.
You like your name.
Your last drink was water.
You have visited somewhere said to be ‘haunted’.
You have skipped school just because you didn’t feel like going.
You have taken medicine when you ‘feel a headache coming on’.
You are self-conscious about your body.
You have a hangover.
You have a pet fish.
You have had a Jehovah’s Witness show up at your house.
You have godparents.
Your parents are still married.
You have step-siblings.
You are the oldest.
You are adopted.
You are one in a triplet.
You don’t want kids.
You haven’t decided whether or not you want kids.
You want more than four kids.
You have a bad temper.
You have made out with a complete stranger.
You usually make the first move in an intimate situation.
You have broken your arm.
You have had to get stitches on your face.
You have had an MRI.
Your fingernails are painted.
You like to draw.
You like to sing.
You can play an instrument.
You keep a lot of secrets from people.
You don’t think people would accept you if they really got to know you.
You don’t trust people easily.
You borrowed something you really need to give back to someone.
You drive a car older than a 2002.
You have lost a friend you never thought you would.
You know a child who died of cancer.
You know a teenager who died in a car wreck.
You have done something illegal in the past 24 hours.
You have cut your hair in the last week.
You wear glasses.
Your favorite season is Autumn.
Your favorite color is orange.
Your favorite animal is a dolphin.
You last rode in a car with a relative.
You last rode in a car with a girl/woman.
You last rode in a car with the person you are dating.
You regularly watch Asian dramas.
You love Chinese food.
Your best friend is older than you. (some)
You have to go to school/work tomorrow.
You answered every question truthfully.
I give my days to you.
I give you all the times I say yes and no.
I give you all the strengths you develop in me along with all the weaknesses and insecurities that lurk within my heart.
I give you all my worries and doubts.
I give you all my work.
I give you reign in all of the relationships in my life.
I give you the rightful place as the third cord in the weaving of my friendships.
I give you the ability to draw people near and let them fall away.
I give you the moments when all seems meaningless.
I give you the moments when all seems hopeless.
I give everything because it is all yours anyway.
I give everything because it is all temporary.
I give everything because only you provide meaning.
I give everything because you are my God, which is the only thing that matters.