"True heroism is remarkably sober, very undramatic. It is not the urge to surpass all others at whatever cost, but the urge to serve others at whatever the cost."
Your Feelings Aren’t The Linchpin Of Your Faith
Have you ever gone through a dry spell spiritually and then wondered whether you are really saved? What if you aren’t all that fired up about the Lord? What if the songs and Scriptures don’t move your heart? What if prayer feels boring, ineffective and tedious? What if you want to connect with the Lord, but you’re just not getting anywhere? What if all your longing and effort doesn’t produce anything when it comes to an actual, quantifiable response?
If you’re anything like me, a dry season like this can make you panic. There’s an anxiety that accompanies this type of emotional apathy about our spiritual life. We wonder, “If I don’t feel it, is it real?” The problem, of course, is that there are times when you really do feel all the stuff you’re supposed to feel - in other words, sometimes it really seems to work. All the cylinders are firing and the life of faith fills our heart and mind. Not only that, but certain people in our lives seem to perpetually live in that state. They are always excited about Jesus - always filled with praise - always drinking from the Living Water and overflowing. What does it mean about you if you’re not like that?
The answer is, you are human. It’s okay, you’re fine. Don’t worry. Sometimes your spiritual life isn’t going to feel like it’s all that real. Sometimes it won’t feel like a thing at all. There will be some people in your life who experience things differently than you do, and just because you don’t feel it the same way they do doesn’t disqualify you. The plain fact is, your feelings are not the basis of your faith. They are a wonderful byproduct that you experience from time to time, but they aren’t the cause or proof of your relationship with God. You should also know that you aren’t alone in this. Most of the New Testament was written to people who needed to be assured of their walk with God even though they weren’t feeling it at the time. The basis of your faith is the work of God. He made you, He rescued you. He fulfilled His own promises to you quite apart from your efforts or aid. Jesus said He holds you in His hand and that the Father holds you in His hand. Those are two unbreakable grips. (John 10:29) You may not always feel it, but if you have believed in Jesus, you are sealed and secure, no matter how it feels on any given day.
I know God is real because I see Him in the small things: the way the sun rises and sets every day, the way birds know to migrate, our fingerprints, the way the leaves change colors, the way caterpillars turn into butterflies. Nature is too perfect to be created unintentionally.
"Oh joy of all joy, let my lips always be found with your name upon them. Never waiting to let your praise be heard, but continuing to lift you up would be to bring glory upon this land. Oh joy of all joy, let me be found with your love on my hands and your grace in my heart. Oh joy of all joy, let me always be near you, so that I may know you and be found in you. Oh joy of all joy, you are the end of all that I am and the beginning of all that you want me to be. Let it be known, let it be lived and let it never end."
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